你的心里存在着这样一个人。

你可以长时间地从网络失踪，或是潜在水下从不主动与他联系。

你有他的手机号码，但是一次都没有发送过短信，更不用说语音信息。

你百无聊赖的时候会想起很多人，然而他的脸未曾具象于你记忆的墙壁。

你已经开始习惯随便扯住个人就点燃你濒临爆点的小宇宙，在他询问起的时候却会说，Everything is fine.

你也许永远不会在他面前说爱，哪怕这个字现今对你来说不过是能够随口抛出用以表达即时情绪的言语。

只是。

只是如若你近一个月没有他的消息，就会无措，心里的暗河汹涌地潮汐。

只是你除了为家人绑定特殊铃声，就只为他完善了所有的详尽信息。

只是你在无数个深夜辗转的梦境里，一次又一次跌跌撞撞地行走在黑暗洞穴，固执追随他的背影远去。

只是当你觉得有那么那么多的人都离你而去，你还是可以在有他的世界里，安静地呼吸。

只是你在卸下了重重防御却又在最深处壁垒得坚固无比时，留下了一个缺口，有唯一的咒语。

只是在你听到Because of you 残破的只言片语，你望不见未来，回不到过去。

你看见世界是黑白交错的影像。

鸽群盘旋过大理岩纹路的天穹，共鸣了路灯喑哑恢弘的独幕剧。

[于是你假文艺了这么久其实就是为了嚎叫一声内其实和前文都没什么关系事实演绎家庭伦理观的歌太有爱大家都去听？]

[怎样，有意见-皿-]

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I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me , but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

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